One of my goals for this year – again – was to blog more often. I am doing well with that. It is March already and I haven’t posted yet. Why is that?
I am a world class procrastinator. I know this. Something I am working on – with little success. I mean really, there is no hurry. I can do it later. Right? I keep forgetting that later doesn’t always get here.
I have no confidence in myself. There has always been someone to shoot down whatever I tried to do. I know the lesson about not always looking for approval from others, but it doesn’t always sink in or manifest when I need it most. There is always that little voice – it often sounds like my mother – telling me I can’t do it. I know better, but . . . Working on that one too.
Yes, I am a hot mess – most of the time. A constant work in progress. One would think that at my age (and we are not going to discuss what that is) I would have learned more or at least learned how to apply what I have learned. But I appear to be an even bigger mess than I was a few years ago.
On the positive side, I do know this. Knowing is half the battle. The other half is figuring out how to fix or improve things, and then how to apply what I have figured out. I am finding the application to be easier said than done for the above mentioned reasons.
But, I will keep plugging away. Something is bound to stick some day!